A ‘fantastic’ woman took her own life after struggling with the fact she was unmarried and had no children by the age of 30, an inquest heard. Hospital administrator Rachel Gow, 29, of Haslingden, Lancashire, thought she was not where she should be in life and felt other members of her family were ‘doing better than her’. Fearing her boyfriend Anton Tsvarev, 30 would leave her, Miss Gow sent him a text message wishing him ‘all the best for the future’ before taking her own life at her home. Mr Tsvarev who had been visiting a friend later found Miss Gow but she died despite attempts by him to revive her. An inquest was told Miss Gow was an ‘outgoing, adventurous and loving’ young woman.
But Miss Gow’s problems began in 2011 after her mother Connie a primary school teacher died from cancer aged 66 in 2011. A statement heard in court read: ‘Following the death of her mother Rachel had a period of independence. She met Anton and they were both extremely happy. He moved in. They had lots in common. She did have three breakups before her relationship with Anton and her greatest wish was to settle down, start a relationship and get married. ‘But she could not overcome her previous sadness and felt Anton would leave her. She was looking forward to turning 30, planning trips to Italy with Anton and going to go Vegas for her birthday, she was saving money every month. But the relationship became unstable and they tried to make it work.’
Miss Gow, who was due to celebrate her 30th birthday in January this year, went to see a psychologist in September 2014. Mr Tsvarev added: ‘There had been nothing significant at the time except the anniversary of her mother’s death also along with her 30th birthday and mine. These were all things that troubled her. She felt she was not where she should be in life.’ He said she felt that she should be married with children and that her siblings were doing better than her and added: ‘This was something she struggled with. Rachel had spoken to me about the fact she had researched suicide techniques.
‘I was not sure how serious she was about it because she always said things in the heat of the moment.’ On the morning of her death in November last year she had taken a disliking to a text message she saw on her boyfriend’s phone. Coroner Richard Taylor said: ‘We have a girl who is severely troubles by a number of aspects of her life. As I understand it she was having a slightly more positive year because of new employment. But she clearly had difficulties and at some stage she purchased the items with which she took her own life. ‘It appears from her actions she did that with intent to end her life.’